Day 1

What female twenty-something year old hasn't struggled with their weight?  I think most of us have been struggling our whole lives.  This is my last year in my twenties.  A scary thought when I put it down in writing.  I have a good job, a wonderful boyfriend, and an amazing family.  Why is it so hard for me to get to my "goal weight"?  

For the next 6 months I am going to post my journey.  I think that if I put this down in writing, maybe I will be liable for my actions.  I work out all the time.  I count calories.  I am obsessed with what I eat.  This needs to change.  In order for me to be happy, I have to be happy with myself.  I am not looking at a goal weight of 130 lbs.  I just want to be comfortable in my own skin.  

My boyfriend and I argue about the stupidest things, but it always comes down to me being insecure with myself.  He has told me time again how I am the most selfless person he knows.  Maybe that is why I let myself go.  The other day when he was describing me to his co-worker, he used that term....  selfless.  I guess it got me thinking.  I need to be selfish for once in my life.  I need to do something for me.  So for the next 6 months, I am working on me.