Day 2

Tonight I am going to watch the Thursday night Bears vs. Packers game at a bar.  I think it is always hard to be out and to resist drinking with everyone.  Is one or two beers worth drinking there?  Refocusing my mindset is the hardest thing about getting healthy.  Tonight I am going to ride my bike to the bar.  Tonight I am going to eat dinner before I go to the bar.  Tonight I am going to make good decisions for me.  

I have been reading all of these amazing fitness and heath blogs lately.  One suggested that I put down in writing exactly what my goals are.  Well, here they are:

1.  To be comfortable with myself.

2. To fit into my skinny jeans again.

3.  To gain my self confidence back.

4.  So I don't have to obsess about everything I eat.

5.  To fit in my black silk dress again.

6.  To be toned.

7.  To be able to wear a bikini in the summer.

8.  To be healthy.

When I am having a bad day, I have to look back on these to know why I am doing what I am doing.  

The hard thing about being "selfish" is that the people that have known you your whole life don't understand why you aren't being yourself.  I guess in time I will tell them to read my blog, but for now I just don't want to worry about what other people think.